Incubus: The Warmth

"I'd like to close my eyes go numb
but there's a cold wind coming from
the top of the highest high-rise today.

It's not a breeze ‘cause it blows hard.
Yes and it wants me to discard the humanity I know
Watch the warmth blow away.

Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came and while you're alive
experience the warmth before you grow old

Do you think I should adhere
to that pressing new frontier
and leave in my wake a trail of fear?
Or should I hold my head up high
and throw a wrench in spokes by
leaving the air behind me clear?"

New Year

I wish my depression will be gone soon and I can live through the year 2006 without it. I really hope that this year will be full of happiness, love, success and I will be able to stabilize my life somehow.

Worst Christmas ever

I spent Christmas holiday with my parents and my sister at home as usual. I didn’t feel any kind of Christmas feeling. And it seems that this period (December – January) will be full of depression, which means that I am going to be closed again. The only thing which helped me to stay alive is the Birthday party of one of my best friends in my hometown. 26 December is always about this party and those friends whom I met once a year. This time somehow I couldn’t be part of the celebration. I was some kind of invisible person there.